Sunday, July 8, 2007
Why, why, why wasn't I able to help you this time? To stop you. To heal you. Why. What am I lacking. What did I not do. What did I not say.
i can feel my heartbeats again. i can feel pain. almost as if, i can feel your pain. i can feel my stomach clenching. i can feel my dinner threatening to rise up. i can see my hands shivering even as i type this. i can feel tears in my eyes.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. TELL ME WHAT TO DO. TELL ME HOW TO HELP YOU. TELL ME HOW. PLEASE. JUST TELL ME HOW. I'LL DO ANYTHING. PLEASE.